On of my new favorite songs. This is the prayer of my life right now, and my prayer for the people of Haiti. I am praying salvation over the country of Haiti, and renewed strength and perseverance for the missionaries there! Pray with me :)

Captivate Us :
Your face is beautiful
And Your eyes are like the stars
Your gentle hands have healing
There inside the scars
Your loving arms they draw me near
And Your smile it brings me peace
Draw me closer oh my Lord
Draw me closer Lord to Thee

(chorus)
Captivate us, Lord Jesus
Set our eyes on You
Devastate us with Your presence
Falling down
And rushing river, draw us nearer
Holy fountain consume us with You
Captivate us Lord Jesus, with You

Your voice is powerful
And Your words are radiant bright
In Your breath and shadow
I will come close and abide
You whisper love and life divine
And Your fellowship is free
Draw me closer O my Lord
Draw me closer Lord to Thee

(chorus)

Let everything be lost in the shadows
Of the light of Your face
Let every chain be broken from me
As I’m bound in Your grace
For Your yoke is easy, Your burden is light
You’re full of wisdom, power and might
And every eye will see You

Unredeemed

Have you heard this song by Selah?!! I love it!! Here are the lyrics:

The cruelest world

The coldest heart

The deepest wound

The endless dark

The lonely ache

The burning tears

The bitter nights

The wasted years

Life breaks and falls apart

But we know these are

Places where grace is soon to be so amazing

It may be unfulfilled

It may be unrestored

But when anything that's shattered is laid before the lord

Just watch and see

It will not be unredeemed

For every choice that led to shame

And all the love that never came

For every vow that someone broke

And every lie that gave up hope

We live in the shadow of the fall

But the cross says these are all

Places where grace is soon to be so amazing

It may be unfulfilled

It may be unrestored

But when anything that's shattered is laid before the lord

Just watch and see

It will not be unredeemed

Places where grace is soon to be so amazing

It may be unfulfilled

It may be unrestored

But you never know the miracle the father has in store

Just watch and see

It will not be

Just watch and see

It will not be unredeemed

The words are so true, and divinely inspired. I am here to tell you that my Lord is good! And so faithful. I am not the best blogger, although I want to be better. I was just reading through some old posts, reviewing prayer requests, and almost crying to see the Lord answer them! I asked for you pray for good girl friends, well I am in the best small group with girls from church. It has just been awesome over the summer, and now the fall we are still all together. There are 5 of us total, a resident, a nurse from MD Anderson, and accountant from MD Anderson. What a blessing to have Jaime the resident to bounce things off of regarding my mom, and Jalen the oncology nurse to reassure me!! And Patricia the accountant keeps me laughing. The Lord has used them so much this summer. I can't wait to see what the Lord brings us through this fall :)

I am loving my job more and more. I am feeling more accepted, and building a raport with the physicians and practioners. I am even looking to go to NNP school. Our medical director has convinced me that I would be good at it! We will see.

I love love Houston!!! I haven't had a peace about living somewhere in a long time, but I am supposed to be here! The people are so diverse, there is great places to eat (I have become a foodie!) The Lord is so good to give me the peace about living here for a while. I absolutely love my church, love my job, and love the people God is bringing into my life!

One more exciting thing is that I get to lead young moms and moms to be through parenting classes. A Christian maternity house here in Houston came to speak at church about a month or so ago, and the Lord just prompted me to go talk to the director about mentoring or teaching something for the girls. We start in Nov, and Anthony wants to do teaching all year next year!!!!! I am SO excited!! I have such a heart for young moms and can't wait to share with them what the Father has in store for them and to see them with their babies. I will keep you updated on how this goes! Pray for open hearts, including mine!

I hope you are doing well! I will try to keep this more updated :)

I will praise you While I am waiting

Life lately has seemed to be a waiting game.  I am waiting for the Lord to bring me good deep relationship girlfriends, waiting to be fully accepted at work, and waiting to get my TX license.  many of you know that this has been a thorn in my side these last few weeks.  I am just trusting the Lord to work fast in the paperwork and mail process.  The Board in Hawaii needs to process my verification, and send it to the Board in Tx.  That is it, but it has taken hawaii over 2 weeks to process my request, and as of today, it is still not processed.  Please pray!!!!  My God is amazing, and has worked things for good thus far, so I have no doubts that he will be faithful yet again.  My temp license expires on Tuesday, so I will miss some work waiting for the paperwork to be processed, since I can't work without a license.  

Life is pretty uneventful otherwise.  I am just trying to find His peace in this storm.  I covet your prayers in this!!

It has been a while....

It has been a while since I have blogged.  Since I am so guilty of blogstalking people to find out what and how they are doing, I better update my own blog!! 

Where do I start?  The last blog talked about the Lord providing me a job here in Houston.  So here is the continuing story of the Lord's faithfulness.  I moved back from Hawaii Friday Dec 19.  I was planning on spending the week with my family, getting to do Christmas with them (which in the life of a nurse, Christmas isn't always celebrated on Dec 25!  The hospitals don't close for the holidays! ), so I was so excited.  I don't think we had celebrated Christmas on Dec 25 for a couple of years.  I would work, so that the moms at work could celebrate it with their families.  Anyway, so my plan was to spend that week with them, then move and start my new job on Monday the 29th.  

So we drove down the 27th, and got settled into a hotel.  I then moved my clothes to Janna's house on Sunday to get ready to start on Monday.  Well I did pre-employment appts on Tues, so already the plan was not going well.  To make a long story short, in my appt, I had to tell them that I was allergic to Latex.  W0rking in the NICU, this has NEVER been a problem because most NICUs are latex free, but not here!!!  So I waited for 2 WEEKS to be cleared to work.  Oh the drama!!!  But again the Lord is faithful, and I was able to learn the city, shop for furniture, find a really cute appt and just start to feel settled.  I should have probably done more errands like register my car and get my license during those 2 weeks but oh well.  So I got to move into my apt the middle of Jan, Jan 17th to be exact, and I started work Jan 19th.  I live about 2 miles from work, so what a blessing!  

Going back to the latex thing, so what i didn't know, and wasn't really told in my interview, was that there was latex in the unit, and a lot of latex!  I don't just get a rash if i use the gloves, but in the past have had like an asthma reaction to it.  I do carry medication with me to open up my throat if it swells, so it is scary for me to work around latex.  But, once again the Father reminded me that He is so near, and to date, I have had ABSOLUTELY NO REACTION!!!!!!!  You don't know how excited I am.  When I saw the box of latex gloves my first day of work, I almost quit right there on the spot, in fear that I would have a reaction, but I didn't.  

So, being new a job is intimidating and annoying at the same time.  I hate having to prove myself to my coworkers.  I just want them to know that I know what I am doing and let me do my thing.  So when they told me I was going to have 8 weeks of orientation, I was mad!!!!  Do you not know that I have 5 years of experience!!  That is so dumb to make me train for 8 weeks.  But most of the time I need to be humbled.  I get on a high horse with my thoughts on how to care for premies and think that I know best.  Umm, wrong thing to do.  So my preceptor Amy is patient with me and lets me voice my frustration with the ways some things are done, and then says, "here at Hermann this is how you are going to do it..it may be silly, but this is how we do it here".  So I dismount my high horse, am humbled, and do what she says!  

I am still in shock as I write this, but when I applied for the job, it was a night position.  Some of you know that I am not a night person.  I get cranky, sick, and depressed when I have to work nights.  So I was really dreading coming off orientation, and starting nights.  But again the Father is faithful, and I found out just this last Thursday that I have a DAY position waiting for me right off of orientation.  I was told that with my experience, and skill level ( this time that won't be going to my head), that I was moved to the top of the list to come to days.  I am elated!!!!  I can't believe it!!!!   I feel like the Lord just drops things in my lap to remind me that he is near and active.  

Now if he could just drop a man in my lap!!! But I guess I would have to stop expecting that!  None of what he has given me I have been expecting, so I need to learn that lesson.  

Sorry for the long update.  My God is Huge!!!  I pray all of you are doing well!!  I am learning to look for the small daily miracles.

Question:  Can anyone tell me why when I wake up in the morning, and my fan (which has not been turned on at all) is slowly spinning, then stops, then starts slowly spinning again.  I want to believe that it is the angel's wings making it move.  I know cheesy, but I want to think that I have angels protecting me!  Any thoughts??!!

Can I tell you about my God!!!

Ok this is going to be preachy, so just get ready.  I want to tell you how my God is working!!!!  So Dom and I broke up a month ago yesterday.  That was a horrible night.  The worst night of losing my best friend, companion and thought to be future spouse.  BUT, it was the best night too.  It was the night that the Lord moved.  He moved in ways that unexplainable.  From that night on, he gave me time to spend with great girl friends until they left for the mainland.  From that night on, he gave me so many opportunities to talk to wise co-workers who are Godly, and are speaking words of truth to me.  He has given me a wonderful friend Janna who has been my encouragment, my ear to cry to over the phone, my confidant, and just a voice of truth.  He has opened my relationship with my parents.  They have always been wonderful, but they are also speaking words of truth.  The Lord dropped a person in my lap Cassie, to buy my car and he allowed for the loan to be approved this weekend!!!!  He dropped a job at a children's hospital in my lap!!!!!!  I can't wait!!!!  There is just something about working in a children's hospital that I have missed.  He gave me a cheap ticket home, a moving bonus at my new job, a place to live with my wonderful friend Janna.  He has given me a sensitivity to knowing peace about situations, being sensitive to where he is leading.  He has given me a heart for the lost.  He has given me a heart that prays for a Godly husband, one that loves the Lord 100 times more than he loves me, one who is keen on the idea of adoption, one who wants to be in fellowship with other believers, one who's desire for our children to be close to our parents.  I was never close to my grandparents in Iowa and we only saw my Gdad in California every 2 years, so this is a desire of mine, for my children to be able to be close to their grandparents.  It has just been amazing to see the Lord work in what could have been a terrible low time.  I cry as i write this, because i just can't believe how much the Lord is working when I am obedient!!!!  I have not seen him make things this easy in over a year.  This entire year has been one obstacle after another here in Hawaii, but the minute I surrendered and became obedient, He moved in ways I can't explain.  I pray that you will praise our God in this with me!!!!  Pray too that everything packing wise falls into place.  I leave in  5 days and there is a ton to do.  God is faithful, though so I am trying not to be stressed!!!!  I love you guys!!!!  Praise our God for the things he is doing!!!!!!

OK and TX here I come!!!!

I have the best news!!!!!!  No we are not back together, no I did not get a tan, and no I did not win the lottery.  But I am moving to the mainland!!!!!  Can I just tell you that God is so so so so good!!!  You all know that, as do I, but he makes himself so clear at just the right moment.  I have been wondering where I am going to live and work.  There were no openings at Children's, so moving to OKC is not an option.  So the Lord dropped a job in Houston in my lap.  I will be working at Tomball regional Hospital in the NICU.  It will be a huge change, as it is a really small NICU, but it will be so good to be with Janna.  I am really excited!!!!  I am going to sell my car to a friend at work (pray we work out the details).  So the Lord is dropping things into place.  I am just praising him for all the miracles he is doing.  Join me in doing the same!!!  

Breaking up is hard to do.

Yes, it is true. Dominic and I have broken up. As hard as it is, I know the Lord is good. This did not catch him off guard or surprise him. I am lost at the moment. What do I do with my life? Where do I move? Where do I work?? I want to get out of here, there are so many reminders of happy times with the boy. Please pray the Lord makes it just so clear. I know that he is faithful and will complete the good work he has started. Pray for clarity and understanding for both Dom and I. We are still friends, which some days is really hard. I am praying a job falls into my lap. Please pray with me on this. The Lord is faithful and will get all the glory for bringing me through one of the lowest times in my life. He has done it before and i know will do it again. I can't and will not do it alone. I will praise him in this storm. He never let's go. I am trusting the Lord and not leaning on my own understanding( i don't understand why the Lord allowed us to date, and for me to leave a wonderful job to move out here). Please pray for clarity and a job opening right where the Lord wants me to be.